Week 4 is here!!

Wow! Already half done with Snatched. They keep saying weeks 3 and 4 will be the hardest and while I can’t say I’m discouraged, I am feeling tired. Last week my hip started hurting and that was a moment I was really glad to have the personal trainer at Blink. She took the time to really stretch me out and massage my hip and it’s feeling close to normal now. I even did kettle bell swings last night without it bothering me. I am also sitting on a lacrosse ball at work which is helping massage it for me. Nothing like a nice butt massage while working. #multitasking

I’ve been really busy with the workshop of the play on the weekends so our cooking parties have been abridged — but still happening. I’m realizing that when I get busy (even if it’s not an all-life-consuming kind of busy) it’s harder to stay focused on health and hotness. My teacher at Snatched last night said that at a certain point you have to stop thinking about it — like when you’re learning piano, at first your focused on every single note but after a while you can’t focus on the detail or you’ll lose the whole piece. Practice practice practice. I’m not sure if I’m communicating this well but it stuck out to me as something to work towards. Letting the workouts, the eating, become second nature to the point of really being able to see the big picture.

I am feeling vaguely discouraged based on the numbers on the scale. This entire journey I’ve fluctuated between 1 and 2 pounds lost. I feel like I’ve made some pretty massive behavioral shifts (eating much better — gym 5 days a week) and I’m not seeing that number go down. Part of this expectation is that I’ve gained a lot of weight pretty quickly and I always thought that it should be easy enough to take off and I’m not finding that to be true. I am losing inches. I emailed the Snatched team and they did not seem too concerned with the lack of weight loss as I’m losing inches (about 3 inches off my hips and 1.5 off my waist as of last week). Here’s what they said “According to these numbers, we’re not seeing tons of weight movement, but spectacular waist and hip inches movement. This likely means we’re burning fat, but also retaining some water from the training and inflammation (not a big deal, as it’s really only affecting the scale and you’re getting demonstrably smaller).”

Mark Fisher in his infinite emails says that people who have chronically dieted have messed up metabolisms and tend to see weight loss slower than the rest of people. I have literally been dieting on and off since age 11 so I’m not surprised to find myself in that category.

On the other hand, I feel strong. Like gun show strong. I still have fat around my muscles but you don’t have to push as far to get them. The Snatched classes are progressing in difficulty and I feel like I am able to keep up and run my own race. My personal trainer is pushing me harder with heavier weights and I feel like things that were hard for me when I just started are getting easier. She’s piling the weight on and I can feel my shoulders and back gaining strength. It’s cool.

The nice thing about doing this for ME and not for AN EVENT is that the pressure is a little off. It’s not like Oh I really hope I fit into THAT DRESS. Or how will my back look with people STARING at it. Instead I really truly feel like I’m able to run my own race and to do this for me. I want to do my best but there is no reason to put pressure on the process. I am going to try really hard and not weigh myself for the time being and focus instead on just doing a good job.

I am still planning on taking my Week 4 progress pictures to see if there are larger shifts visible in comparison to the beginning. I read some blog about annoying things people trying to get fit do and one of the items was take before/after pictures before there’s significant change. SORRY (not sorry) IF THAT IS ANNOYING!

Week 4! Let’s DO THIS!